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The Bluebeard Moral:
A grim story about a jealous malcontent husband, demanding the impossible of his wife. The fairy tale 'Bluebeard' has a happy ending though: the heroine marries a worthy man who ...
Continue reading: Elation, Demons and Monkeys here...
Something inside is screaming at me to be quiet
A vortex of words without meaning *just yet*
Whispering silence, the black hole of noise
So I'll close the doors for a while to tame thoughts
Because I ...
Continue reading: Black Hole Of Noise here...
I believe that if some would have a different attitude there would be less poverty in this world. I believe that if some would be less materialistic, things could change. Look at the current financial...
Continue reading: Blog Action Day 2008 - Poverty here...
The sun is shining through my window, there's a storm outside and I can see the trees swing from side to side. Still holding on to their already turning leaves, but it won't last much longer I'm afrai...
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'Reject your sense of injury, and the injury itself disappears.'
~Marcus Aurelius
If you have been wronged, you can choose:
• to be humble and forgive
or
• to be bitter and vengeful
I refuse to beco...
Continue reading: I Forgive You here...
I'm glad the Olympics are over, I banned it: total madness that doesn't make sense to me. Living in London and having to pass the Olympic site on a regular basis made me realise what this madness is a...
Continue reading: Square Wheel here...
Whenever I had a not-so-happy phase in life, I had the tendency not to eat and skip meals or eat soup and toast instead of a meal because I was too lazy to cook. I don't know what triggered it but at ...
Continue reading: Art Of Cooking here...
I've been a bit out of balance lately but I guess that's just a nice way of saying that I've been slightly pissed off with some people, some situations and some attitudes. I had to think deep the mome...
Continue reading: No More here...
I've had many encounters with Bluebeard-like energies only to learn each time that I could not live up to their expectations, I was never good enough. I wasn't perfect therefore not tolerated, but my ...
Continue reading: My Manawee here...
If you wonder where I've been... Well besides being busy I had to come to terms with a few issues so I needed time to reflect. Things have been slightly rough again lately or perhaps they still were: ...
Continue reading: Nature's Wonders here...
Thanks to the gift of this wonderful person I have found my long lost craving for words again and I started reading books and actually finish them instead of giving up when I only have 35 more pages t...
Continue reading: Bluebeard and Wolves here...
I've done something yesterday that I wasn't able to do in a long long time: I've finished a book... I know that might sound odd to some but I haven't been able to finish a book in years. I always star...
Continue reading: Secrets of Alchemy here...
'I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!". I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it ...
Continue reading: Believe In Me here...
I'm still recovering from an intense Easter Sunday so I'm not sure if what I will write in my post will make any sense. I guess I shouldn't even try... Yesterday I went over to Maurice and Warren's to...
Continue reading: Easter Eggs here...
The Dutch have a saying that goes: 'Hij weet van voren niet dat hij van achteren leeft' which literally translates to, 'His front does not know that his back is alive'. Yes I know... we have some odd ...
Continue reading: Tooth Fairy here...
You'll never see the courage I know
Its colors' richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow - the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you
But as the scenery gr...
Continue reading: My Perception here...
London, August 2007
Only the stars where hiding that night
And the Boy with the Bow had taken the day off...
The Jackman's Song
The Faiery beame upon you,
The Starres to glister on you;
A Moone of ...
Continue reading: Betides here...
I've noticed something a while ago and have been thinking whether I should write a post about this or not but it has been on my mind for some time and I would like to hear other people's opinion as we...
Continue reading: A Thought [or Three]... here...
I told myself not to post because some things are better left unsaid but since some are asking I will write five sentences. Due to circumstances this birthday wasn't what I was hoping for at all. Ther...
Continue reading: Eye of Delusion here...
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Making things clear
Valid during several weeks: During this time you may be inclined to keep your opinions to yourself and not communicate them to others, even when you ...
Continue reading: Compassion here...
I got a letter in last week from the NHS, the National Health Service. I'll have to make an appointment with the nurse to have another screening done. Ever since I had surgery in March this year, I sl...
Continue reading: Precious Gifts here...
my precious time! What happened to people and politeness in this world? No-one seems to be courteous anymore these days. Is this because I'm getting older and I start to notice? Hold on for a moment, ...
Continue reading: Stop Wasting... here...
I was kept awake half the night because of this singing that came in through the open window. It seemed to move from place to place and at some point it was very nearby... The first time I ever heard ...
Continue reading: Night 'n Gale here...
It's the first of December... and almost the end of a year.
I tried to understand my demons instead of fighting them since April this year. I'm still not sure if I do, perhaps if I allow my heart to ...
Continue reading: Counting... here...
The dust has settled after a week and I even heard an apology yesterday. It seems that whenever there is a full moon, things get heated at times. I do believe in the energy of the moon, the power of C...
Continue reading: Moon Energy here...
I'm sure that one day I will laugh when I'll read parts of this blog again, one day I will understand and realise why I wasn't able to see things sooner because I was stuck in the middle and I couldn'...
Continue reading: One Day here...
I wonder at times if I'm the only person on this planet who gets annoyed by people who have no clue what Netiquette means. Yes I write that with a capital N on purpose... To answer my own statement, I...
Continue reading: Netiquette here...
Last year in June I had to drive to Schiphol Airport to collect my aunt who came back from a trip to Odessa [Ukraine]. She is part of a group of artists who paint Russian icons and the trip was organi...
Continue reading: Holy Icons here...
Blossom, Sunday 13 April 2003
To know Tao
meditate
and still the mind.
Knowledge comes with perseverance.
The Way is neither full nor empty;
a modest and quiet nature understands this.
The empty v...
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I'm sitting at my desk and a second ago while I was leaning backwards in my chair the morning sun caressed my face and I closed my eyes for a moment to enjoy the warmth when reality suddenly hit me. I...
Continue reading: A Home for my Soul here...
Tomorrow is going to be a very important day for me and when the day is over I will be able to relax, sit down and do nothing for a change [but probably not for long...]. I wrote a while ago about my ...
Continue reading: Judgment Day here...
While some things are going great other things don't seem to be going well and I find myself having Friday Blues... Just wishing Friday would be over in the blink of an eye. I guess part is caused by ...
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Couldn't resist and needed to see if I'm still sane:
The Super IQ Test:
Zesty Gal, your IQ score is 117
Your overall intelligence quotient is the result of a scientifically-tested formula based on h...
Continue reading: Imaginative Mastermind here...
Life can be strange at times and I find myself in my deep-thinkers mode quite often lately because of this. I have a love-hate relationship with myself if I am thinking too deep and/or too much. I see...
Continue reading: Acting The Goat here...
In perfect dreams love has no extremes
All the world can be endlessly in perfect dreams
In perfect dreams you can fly it seems
Sailing nakedly, wavelessly in perfect dreams
Dream, have a rendezvou...
Continue reading: In Perfect Dreams here...
I'm so hungover I need at least a week to recover, I should cut the crap really and stick to lemonade instead of booze. I know I sound like some moron alcoholic but trust me I ain't. It's just that I ...
Continue reading: The Fool here...
I love most of these words, they're all related to weather types [why don't you pick one and let me know why you like it...] My favourite would be Sultry, it makes me think of white beaches, a jungle,...
Continue reading: Pick One here...
I had a dream last night. I was invited to a housewarming of a friend of mine who had moved into some new fancy area. On my way there near the entrance of the building, I ran into an old friend of the...
Continue reading: Mystery Man here...
Coffee and Chocolate. Two of my favourite things, two things that could really win my affection. I couldn't resist and had to redesign the theme of this blog. I am in need of these two things, I want ...
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I'm stuck between the past and the future. I'm in a surreal world, where sweetness becomes bitterness and things aren't what they seem. Subtle cruelty to the mind. All I can do is sit and watch the sh...
Continue reading: Surreal here...
I received a letter from my mum today. I admire her strength because even though she has rheumatoid arthritis she still writes and sends me letters every now and then. There's been very little communi...
Continue reading: Mum's Letter here...
Things have been good for a few days now. I seem to be able to accomplish a lot more once I set my mind on it, which leaves me feeling good about myself. I try to set a goal each day and instead of no...
Continue reading: Culture Shock here...
I woke up in tears this morning because of a nightmare I had. It's a sign to me that things are not okay, not that I don't realise that already but it's telling me how I deal with stress because I had...
Continue reading: Contradictions here...
Well, I'm getting ready to go to hospital this Thursday and have the biopsy and surgery done. Filling out all the forms and making a list of what to bring. I'll have to do this once again on my own, b...
Continue reading: The End Or A New Beginning? here...
A. is going to be on standby all weekend, starting Friday afternoon... He told me he will receive about 30 calls during the day and night *nice* He said:"you are going to be grumpy and pissed off with...
Continue reading: Standby here...
Someone keeps calling me, they should leave me alone... I would like to continue rowing, it's hard work you see. I don't want to be interrupted and having to pick up phones. Grrr, better get my iPod S...
Continue reading: Rowing Calls here...
Science is organized knowledge. Wisdom is organized life. ~Immanuel Kant
I've been exchanging emails with J. again lately, she's my personal guide at times. Whenever I have issues she will be right t...
Continue reading: Quest here...
I've got to think a lot lately and I don't feel really happy about certain things. I think I will take a break for a while just do my own stuff and not looking after others all the time. I need time t...
Continue reading: Shut here...
Carla called, she packed A.'s jeans in her suitcase... I don't think they will fit her
She asked me to design their wedding announcement card and of course I said yes. I'm going to be busy... but a ...
Continue reading: Announcement here...
At times, two individuals in a relationship can be total strangers hiding from each other, fighting each other, cursing each other, even hating each other. At times I find myself surprised about all t...
Continue reading: Moon Phases here...
I looked this up on my fav website, it's yesterdays chart... Can't be a coincidence. The moon is pulling the strings again. I'm going into hiding mode now, just had to share this since it is exactly w...
Continue reading: A Radical Reappraisal here...
Show appreciation and gratitude for what the other does; give the positive side of the relationship more weight than the negative side; be empathetic, take the other's perspective. A couple in which e...
Continue reading: In Sight here...
We wanted to get into town but ended up driving around looking for properties in nice areas. I love the townhouses in Hackney, they remind me of the Dutch houses downtown, very old, with steps up to t...
Continue reading: Penthouse here...
That's how I feel quite often lately...
Photograph by Raymond Gehman © 2005 National Geographic Society....
Continue reading: Lonely Place here...
The powers of the moon seem to be in charge again causing nothing but troubles... I'm sad ...
Continue reading: Full Moon here...
I made good progress: 1.8 kilo in one week! ...
Continue reading: Weigh Point here...
Noticeable Oddities of the Day:
'Holland' or 'The Netherlands'...
It's simple...
The Netherlands: a country
Noord Holland and Zuid Holland; two of twelve provinces of The Netherlands... [so no coun...
Continue reading: Once And For All... here...
I'm not sure if I need to become vegetarian or not. I do like chicken or steak, basically those two types are the only two I eat about once or twice a week. I had a look at this Lowlands website for t...
Continue reading: Just Gross here...
I had the freakiest dream last night... It was almost footage for a very awesome sf/horror movie. I guess it happens again; nightmares, weird dreams,waking up in the middle of the night covered in swe...
Continue reading: Freakiest Dream here...
It feels empty in the house, my heart feels empty, my mind feels empty;
It's silent in the house, my heart is silent, my mind is silent;
words can't express how I feel
Somehow the same thing always f...
Continue reading: Emptiness and Silence here...
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The Cave
Cast : Cole Hauser, Morris Chestnut, Eddie Cibrian, Marcel Iures, Lena Headey, Piper Perabo
Director: Bruce Hunt
U.S. Release Date: August 26th, 2005 (wide)
P...
Continue reading: Movies here...
Have not done much this week. I needed to chill for a change. I went to the hairdresser on Thursday and had my hair cut... Yes: about 12 cm is gone but it was quite urgent because of split ends. I wan...
Continue reading: Week #19 here...
I left home early this morning to go to work, I absolutely dislike going to work early, the earliest I ever had to start was 06.30 when I was working as a cook for a green grocery down town, we had to...
Continue reading: Early Rise but No Shine here...
I didn't sleep much last night, guess I was driving A. crazy as well. I have been tossing and turning most of the time being in pain. I woke up about three times because my stomach was seriously hurti...
Continue reading: Bug, Bugger, Bugged... here...
The dreams are still there, last night I had a dream of caterpillars. The bright green ones that are stuck in broccoli. Big fat juicy caterpillars, but also smaller ones. They were everywhere in my ro...
Continue reading: Caterpillars here...
I don't have a clue what's going on but I had nightmares and panic attacks over the weekend. Four days in a row altogether. It seems like it's getting worse these days and I don't understand why.
It'...
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I woke up screaming in the middle of the night. My heart beating like crazy. I was sitting straight up in the bed. A. turned the light on and comforted me... I had no idea what was going on, just that...
Continue reading: Scream here...
I have had such vivid dreams night after night, for at least two weeks now. It's taking all my energy and I feel even worse in the morning. It's like I watch an eight hour movie all night long. Very e...
Continue reading: Mr. Sandman... Bring Me a Dream here...
Something must have been wrong, maybe a bad constellation again, I don't know. Things have been wrong this morning when I got up. I could sense it straight away. I'm tense and not feeling okay. I hav...
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Willy DeVille was awesome! The gig at Paradiso was really cool. He's getting older though, he needed a stool to sit on during the concert and he was limping. People were guessing about his age, most o...
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Vanja, Tilly, me and my beer... Enjoying the weather at the Tig Barra. When Tilly was about to leave, I called A. to ask him if he wanted to join me. He did. We stayed till 23.15 and had a discussion ...
Continue reading: AM and PM - What is Noon and Midnight? here...
This morning I got an email from my younger brother. He wrote me that I'm going to be an aunt... Jeez, I was surprised to have finally received that title in this stage of my life *grin* Flabbergasted...
Continue reading: I'll be Auntie here...
Found this on the internet this morning, it's beautiful:
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting in your heart's longing....
Continue reading: The Invitation here...
I can't help noticing that all my topics lately seem to be about food... Why is that?...
Continue reading: Food here...
Sometimes you'll find answers in different places. Sometimes it's someone you've talked to or a complete stranger who makes a remark that will start the process. Sometimes it's something visual, a sit...
Continue reading: Acceptance here...
Yes we do argue, all people do at times. It wouldn't be healthy not to. We have discussions at times, arguments at times, disagreements at times. We can both be very stubborn and not willing to give i...
Continue reading: Flowers here...
Isn't there an easy way to sort out what it is that you really want in life? Something to satisfy that restless feeling deep down and find out what the purpose is of it all?
I wish at times that I co...
Continue reading: Chocolate here...
Sometimes, I'm just tired, I would like to hide from the world and sleep all day. Stop the nagging, the whining, the attitude, the arrogance, the complaining just by closing my eyes and have wonderful...
Continue reading: Tired here...
I sometimes have no clue. My head won't cooperate. The brain is simply refusing to transfer data and process the info in order to get the results I'm craving for. My brain is annoying me because I'm v...
Continue reading: Who? here...
You're invading my thoughts and when I realise what my thoughts are about it puts a smile on my face straightaway. I'm radiant because of you, I'm singing because of you and if I have a bad day you br...
Continue reading: Magic here...
My sweet English man, my sweet English man, can't think of anything but... and I need to study but my mind is playing an endless movie and you have the main role. Why don't you just stop haunting my t...
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I started the study today and had a meeting at the study centre. Met some really nice people. The group consists of 55 people and there's also another group on Saturday. Each of us seem to be really m...
Continue reading: Study here...
You have to allow a certain amount of time in which you are doing nothing in order to have things occur to you, to let your mind think.
--Mortimer Adler
Time is too slow for those who wait, too swif...
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Rain, rain and rain. Cats and dogs. Thunder and lightning. Showers...
Everything else is fine though......
Continue reading: It Never Rains It Pours here...
I was sitting on the couch with my laptop, writing an email to Mr. Dating and surfing channels because again there was nothing decent on TV while I received a txt message from him. After watching TV o...
Continue reading: Starkle, Starkle here...
I just couldn't sleep, been tossing and turning, woke up early in morning and thought 'what the heck, I might as well get up and get ready'... I had a date today at 13.00, meeting up at a cafe close t...
Continue reading: Date here...
Received a reply today! Jeez I feel like a 18 year old giggling girl... I start to like this dating thing ...
Continue reading: Yesss... here...
Hilarious!
I received an email today:
Congratulations, you have been selected as the BlahBlah Date of the week for next week. Having seen the profile you posted on the BlahBlah site, it was decided ...
Continue reading: Date of the Week here...
It's over
Finally
I feel good about it
Should've done it
Much earlier
Time to move on
And have some
Serious fun again
Watch me walk honey!
And don't wish me
A happy birthday
It will turn sour
Comin...
Continue reading: Over... here...
My birds died because of me
Because I didn't listen to my gut feeling
I will never see them being silly again
They will never make me laugh again
I miss them so much already
The house feels so empty w...
Continue reading: Why... here...
I gave him so many chances already...
Forgave him over and over again
Swallowed my pride over and over again
Why for Christ sakes does he have to blow it...
Damn him
For hurting me...
Continue reading: Chances here...
God, it's almost the end of the year...
I wonder what I accomplished this year
I don't want to think about it to be honest
Cause it makes me realise that the answer
Will probably be 'nothing'
Yeah I...
Continue reading: Dad here...
God, such a horrible day
Went to see my mum
Went for dinner that evening
With brother and mum
What a complete mess
Such a nice atmosphere... not
It was an obligation
After a year of avoiding
Couldn't ...
Continue reading: Horrible Day here...
Clean for 7 weeks now
Only feel the urge when I'm stressed
Usually caused by relationship problems
Makes me wanna light one up
But I ain't giving in
Although I'm tempted
At times...
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