Procrastinating Goat
I really really need to stop being stubborn and I need to stop procrastinating. I know it's a Goat's thing but at times I really don't do myself a favour by feeding this Goat trait of mine nice juicy green leaves just to keep it alive. I need to set priorities right but I'm weak and so easily distracted so I end up doing things that I shouldn't be doing. I end up writing that email to a friend instead of staying focused and concentrate on work to be done as in building loads of websites...
Yesterday was a weird day, lucky me I had some moments with Leo in between appointments before he will be off to another unknown destination this morning. I had to see my GP about something that has been bugging me for five weeks already [five weeks seems to be the magic procrastination number somehow]. Leo made me call for an appointment last week, I've waited this long because my GP moved surgery and is now situated in the 'badlands', too far away.
So yes, once again Doc was upset with me for leaving it too long, so here I am having to take two different antibiotics twice a day for the next week, some other pills to suppress the symptoms and some other ugly looking drink mixture with morphine. No idea why I'm getting morphine [something you won't easily get in the Lowlands but it seems to be quite normal here and in France as well btw] probably to take care of the pain I guess. Would make sense but still: I need a clear head...
And on top of that I'm supposed to go to the hospital again to have tests done. When do I have time to do this? See, that's exactly where stubbornness creeps in... I'm in the middle of a serious deadline and I simply don't have time. I also had to see my accountant yesterday which turned out to be quite fruitful, resulting in a two hour chat instead of half an hour that I'd asked him for, resulting in more work as in assignments and a discount. It seems things are slowly starting to pick up.
But boy... I need time... more time... and a lot of people seem to claim mine somehow, it's not just one email a day, I receive about five a day and people are waiting for replies, both business and personal. So I'm gonna stop procrastinating today and crack on with it. No more replies to personal emails for a while, friends should understand that getting my life back on track is my number one priority. I'm gonna be stubborn but in a good sense... It's called time management baby!
So instead of sending me an email it would be so much easier to post a comment for me here!
So i shouldn't reply to your last email?
;) Hihi, i will anyway, but don't feel obliged to email back any time soon. I understand. Totally.
Get your work done, make those deadlines and most importantly make sure you get your health in order!
Days should have 30 hours each :) as there are so many things to do that time is just not enough but then again, as you well pointed out it's all about time management :)
It upsets me when Red doesn't want to go to the Dr. when he needs it and then things become more "acute" and then he just can't postpone it :( It is important to take care of one's health my viendrin :)
My mom also tends to do the same. She has been delaying a visit to the Dr. for four years or more...though we are almost sure that she has some sort of diabetes or something like that. She just refuses to go. She always says that the money is not enough...but then she tells me she has bought something new and expensive...Then my sister confirmed that she just doesn't want to go to the doctor...Oh, well, I try... :) Anyway, sorry for writing such a long comment!
I hope that you are doing better now with the medicines and that your tests will be all right. You will be in my thoughts :)
Ismoyo: *LOL* You can, there's always exceptions ;) Funny, yesterday I got an email in from my brother, I made his 2 year old daughter a bunny blanket [crochet] and so he had to send me pics of her opening the parcel. So I broke my own rule again and was replying to his email late at night *sigh* I'm such a wuss... ;)
Btw, your enthusiasm [your beautiful pillows] inspired me to try the bunny, it turned out really good. I haven't done this for ages but was very good at it at school [handwerk les]. So thank you for this and for reminding me of long lost skills... :)
Wen: hi Wen, never be sorry for leaving long comments, it's nice and I appreciate it! I realise how it upsets others when I don't see Doc but with me it's not that I don't want to, it's just the hassle of it all: having to call for an appointment, having to go to a dodgy part of town while the Doc used to be around the corner etc. So I end up postponing...
Which is exactly what made me end up in hospital fighting for my life last year. I tend to forget that I survived death which makes me ungrateful in a way, I was reminded of this last Monday when I went to see my accountant. He said I looked much better than last time which was in January this year a few months after I was hospitalised. So yes, I should be more careful!
But there's a sweet person in my life who made me call for an appointment... and I hate the thought of upsetting him [which I already did last year] so yes, I will try to improve myself!
I hear both of you, thanks for caring!
LOL, being a goat I now this all too well. I can't really help you there. ;/
I hope it all goes with you the doctors and such!
I've been so busy with stuff it's starting to drive me crazy. Everyone seem to claim my time as well... but that should change in a few weeks when I fly over to Ireland for two weeks. A much needed vacation is in order!
I should go to the doc too. And the dentist. I am not the young whippersnapper I like to think I am.
I hope there is no need for this post to remind you that your health comes first in any aspect. I ignored my health many times and when I did it pops up and reminds me about it. Health does not necessarily mean just the physical health it also means hearing yourself speak listening to your inner energy.
(now look at me i am writing as if I was a preacher or something, which by the way I am not) :-)
But Hey the point is listen to your body's signs, they count.
Time to get out that chalk and send you to the blackboard again you silly goat ;-)
Procrastinating is not good, but I surely do my share.
Perhaps too often :-( And I'm not a goat.
I am glad things worked out with the accountant even if you would have rather been doing something else.
Signs? Maybe Leo is away for a reason even though you may not want him to be ;-)
Take care of yourself before all else or you're going to end up with white fingers.... I assure you :-p
(better then yellow, but mocha is best)
Dalton: it's tough to be a Goat isn't it? *hehe* I'm waiting for test results to come in still but thank you! It always seems that whenever one is busy it attracts others doesn't it? A friend of mine who is an initiated Lama once told me it's because of the vibes you send out that others seem to pick up on. We were in the garden talking for hours one day and she hardly ever receives phone calls. That day, the phone rang four times while I was there. People she hadn't had contact with for ages... odd huh? ;)
Have fun in Ireland chasing the leprechauns and good luck with dentist and doc!
Reuben: yes you are so right... It is a sign and I should listen to it. All I can say is: 'I know, I know...' while being embarrassed. I do tend to ignore that inner voice at times which is no good, thank you for reminding me :)
Your writing is very much appreciated no matter what form or shape or no matter what 'label' one attaches to it ;) Thank you for your concern!
Jim: Oh no... don't make me use the chalk again :p
Hmm... perhaps I should pass the chalk on to you then? *LOL*
Accountant was good and yes I'd rather wanted to do something else but I got another wonderful moment the next day. Perhaps Leo is gone for unknown reasons but Dreamer wants him to come home though rather sooner than later, home as in Home where new chapters of books are being written. So Dreamer better stay focused :)
No more yellow ever... you're stuck with mocha for the rest of your life! *hehe*
I long for Home.
Yes, you'd better send that chalk back over although I managed not to be sent to the blackboard yesterday.