The End Or A New Beginning?
Well, I'm getting ready to go to hospital this Thursday and have the biopsy and surgery done. Filling out all the forms and making a list of what to bring. I'll have to do this once again on my own, because it seems that I'm a single woman again since Monday.
It wasn't my choice and it still isn't but I reckon if there seems to be no other option according to the 'ex' other half than what is left to fight for? I would only end up getting more hurt than I already am. So I face the facts and try to start a life on my own out here or anywhere, I don't know yet. The dream of doing this together has been shattered, so I reckon I have my own journey from now on.
I won't make a list of what I gave up on along the line because realising that will only make things harder, let's just say it's a lot, basically my entire life. I just hope there will be some kind of replacement that will bring me the type of security that I need, the same security that I [thought I] had and that made me help decide to give up my life in the Lowlands and start it in London. So I really miss my friends and family at the moment.
I'm gonna deal with pain in the next few days mentally and physically, let's hope I'll be able to post something more positive soon. I'm trying to keep my chin up but I might not succeed at times, that's because I'm not flawless, I never pretended to be...
Aww, Tess, so sorry to read this!
Hugs and kisses to you...
Dalton
PS: I posted this earlier and it didn't go through, I guess.
*hug*
I'm sorry to hear what happened. I hope you feel better soon and hospital visit goes well.
Dalton: thank you for your support :)
It didn't go through because you used a different email address, I added that one to the whitelist so it will be fine next time you leave a comment, no worries.
Stuart: thank you too, it feels good to have people around when you need it most. I'm scared about the hospital thing but I'm sure things will be fine.
Thanks both of you for being there for me, that's really sweet!