Jeez

I feel like I'm on some emotional rollercoaster lately. One moment I'm fine and the next I'm not. Reading other people's blogs is a nice way to distract myself from the madness that is going on and to keep sane. I think I will have to book a flight back to Amsterdam soon and just go there without being in doubt all the time whether to go or not. Today was a good day, all was fine until my friend Jodi sent me an email telling me that she had just spoken to Carla.

Carla is still in hospital suffering from a stroke. Yesterday my friend Kimm sent me an email telling me Carla would be going home over the weekend. They've found fluid in the cavities and if it would turn out to be a sinus infection she would get antibiotics and she would be released from hospital. I was very much in doubt about that, knowing she is not okay at all after I've spoken to her on the phone, no matter what these doctors say, I could tell and it was frustrating me.

So today I received an email from Jodi after she had spoken to Carla telling me that she needs more surgery done on the brain, there's too much pressure *duh, she still had terrible headaches and the drain was still filling up with blood* caused by the brain sucking up blood like a sponge... I really wish this nightmare was over. That she will be a healthy woman again ready to get married in June...

I'm supposed to design her wedding announcement but I just can't, it doesn't feel right somehow. I'm stuck. A. has been very supportive he can tell it's causing a lot of stress, I warned him I might be snappy at times. So forgive me if I have a bad day and won't be in the mood for posting. I'd rather read about other people's lives and leave them a nice comment than being stuck in this whirlpool. So anyone out there reading this, feel free to leave your blog url so I'll stay sane, it's for a good cause...
Thanks!