*Sigh*

We've been to the GP this morning, A. wanted me to go because I have been ignorant and in denial for quite a few years now. Just didn't want to have a checkup again. Last time I did I had to go to hospital and they came up with an outrageous solution, two that is. I just walked out of there being upset and angry. I made a promise to him that I would see a doctor over a year ago, so I could no longer postpone.

So after years of having the problem I went to see the doctor and talked about it. He examined me, took a smear and gave me a prescription because he thinks I have an infection and the nurse told me he could feel a cyst. I will have to go back for the results on the 18th and get a referral to go to the hospital. I asked A. to come along because I sometimes don't know how to explain things so he will be there to support me.

I have been thru all this before and it worries me, especially with my family history, my fathers sister [cervical cancer which had spread] and my father who died of cancer. I really hate feeling the way I do: having to wait for results again, having this constant worry in the back of my head, having to spend a lot of time at the hospital and having examinations done etc.

For now I can only sit and wait and hope the results will be okay, then after they've removed the cyst hope it will be a good one [I really have no clue how they are going to do that since it is cervical and in an awkward place and I really don't want to think about it]. I don't want more surgery, I don't need the stress really...