Condition of the Heart

I just came back from the hospital. I had to see a neurologist about the dizziness, headaches and fuzziness in my head which started 7 years ago. The reason why I went to see an ENT specialist [ear, nose and throat specialist] and had surgery done 2 years ago is because of the same complaints. They wanted me to see this ENT specialist first, before seeing a neurologist. But the ENT specialist gave up on me, he said he didn't know what to do anymore and wanted me to either get more surgery done or move on to the next phase which was the neurologist. So I moved on because my GP also wanted me to see one.

The more doctors I see the more brain dead I become. I start to lose faith in regular medicine. I wonder how and why it is possible for someone to earn a living, let me rephrase and emphasize that, a good living by just 'guessing'... When I arrived at the hospital today the doctor that I had to see seemed to be ill so I had to see another one instead. First I had a 30 minute interview and then they did all sorts of tests on me for about another half an hour. Finally they said they couldn't find anything except for something that had to do with my heart and could possibly cause complaints as I had mentioned.

So tomorrow morning I have to go see a cardiologist and so I wonder what he will tell me: 'Excuse me, I think your heart has been broken too many times; your heart is in your boots at the moment...' Well, we'll see... I need to run and buy groceries since I started the diet today; no carbohydrates [no grains, rice, crackers, bread etc.], no yeast and no sugar for two months. God I will lose so much weight! This morning I went running at the park with Dina for another hour. After running we normally have coffee and something to eat. This morning I just had coffee, for lunch I had two herrings and yesterday's leftovers. I have to cook three portions and put the third portion in the fridge so I can eat it next day for lunch.

I can't even have a drink *darn* no sinful life for me then... I could smoke and 'smoke' and have magic mushrooms instead. But those are fungus which is probably not allowed *have no clue* This is going to be tough. I already have a bit of a craving for sugar, just the normal in-between-snack or chocolate, mellow-cakes whatever. I'm not allowed to eat it... I'll go to the store and buy some packs of tomato juice and some sugar free candy. Btw this is not the stupid Atkins diet!!! I went to this therapist last week and she measured my whole system and told me that I've got Candida and a leaking gut system, causing me to intoxicate myself. Anyway, I need to run to the stores now and buy some food! Otherwise I won't have breakfast in the morning!!!

Will write more later...