Pull the Trigger

We had a very relaxed weekend, doing nothing but fun things. But once again that Sunday morning we had another argument. I was so happy when I woke up that morning. I didn't want to wake him up so I got out of bed and went into the living to listen to some jazz music on my MiniDisc player. I've been lying on the couch, listening and singing for an hour and a half or so.

He woke up and came in so I got up and got ready. For some reason I annoyed him again and he blew up in my face. Again saying harsh words. I was so angry I was ready to pack my stuff and leave. I don't have to take that crap. He wasn't paying respect at all. He hurt me again. I just wanted to leave for good. He didn't even trust me to be left in the house to sort out my things and leave on my own because he thought I would trash the place like some of his exes did. Why can't he see that I am not like his exes? Why does he have to hurt me? Why doesn't he just communicate with me...

All it takes is telling me what is going on in his head
I can't read his mind, I wish I could so I could see the moods coming
I have so much on my own mind already I can't keep track of his agenda too... What does it take for him to just tell me what the plan is when it is relevant? What is it that is triggering him? What is it that I seem to do wrong?

We went to watch the rugby game. I met this girl and have been talking to her for two hours or so. I had fun and a cool conversation, although a bit serious too. We promised to write each other and maybe meet again in the future.

I stayed another night because I knew he had to learn another chapter for the course and if he would take me to my place and drive all the way back home he would've been exhausted. So I thought it would be better if I would leave in the morning and take the train instead.