His Past

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By Zesty Gal on Tuesday: Aug 19, 2003 at 13:52:24 | Permalink

Had such a good time in the UK; I'm exhausted and I guess he's even more exhausted than I am! Back home again and things are back to 'normal'... Normal according to new regulations and standards; set by circumstances I've never asked for. 'Love' makes you do crazy things doesn't it? It makes you hold your tongue at times, swallow that pride and just take it in as if nothing happened.

I have to face circumstances and at times its hard to accept it but I did. And as soon as I realise that I am about to lose my sanity again I need to step back from it all and center myself and care about me only. Get wasted and talk to friends to have another reality check. It helps.

It helps caring for a man who's still attached to his past and always will be attached to his past because of his child. It helps until he can commit himself. I hope that one day he might realise how difficult it can be for someone to be in a situation like this. It is the love for myself that keeps me sane and gives me the strength to be supportive to him. I think this is the most difficult relationship to be in, yet I made this choice. I wonder how he would feel if the situation was the other way around...



Occupation: - Managing Director Gadget Gal Web Designer Graphic Designer Multimedia Designer Digital Artist & Pixel Fukcer Expat Life: I moved from Amsterdam to London, Aug. 2006. Things didn't quite work out as planned and I found myself on my own in a foreign country. Reflection: 2007 Has been a difficult year but I've managed to accomplish a lot more than I thought I ever could. I've set up my own business, survived a serious health issue, met some amazing people and found my future... Personality: At times stuck in a time warp of ideas and thoughts, Mixed Blood [Eurasian seems to be the fancy word for it: Indonesian and Dutch], typical Capricornish Goat, Sensitive, Crazy about Apple Macs and anything related, Gadget Girl, Intelligent, Psychological profiling of all kind, Sucker for all sorts of stuff that makes my OS run like: Coffee and Chocolate, Deep Thinker, Perfectionist, Foolish, Silly, Stubborn [WHAT?... ME? I don't think so... tsk, pffft....] Indulgence: English full breakfast once in a while when not counting calories, Indonesian fried rice and a Sateh [Nasi Goreng] like my great grandma used to make, Thai Tom Ka Kai or Thai Green Curry Noodle soup original traditional recipes, definitely a peaty Islay Scotch preferably shared with my best friends in Scotland [Inge and Frank] and a Dutch coffee when I'm in Amsterdam with a piece of Dark Chocolate! Proud Owner: Mac Classic †, Mac LC II †, PowerMac 6500 †, Performa 6800 †, Power Mac 8200 †, iBook Tangerine †, PowerBook G4, iPod shuffle, iSight, Power Mac G5. Feel free to leave me a comment!
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